"Just Let Me Cry"

Today as I got news about my sister and the cancer taking over her body, this song came to my mind. It is by Hilary Weeks. I have pretty much cried all day, the tears are so close to the surface.

Just Let Me Cry

I believe that everything happens for a reason.
We’re not just tossed by the wind,
or left in the hands of fate.
But sometimes life sends a storm that’s unexpected.
And we’re forced to face our deepest pain.
When I feel the heartache begin to pull me under...
I dig my heels in deep,
and I fight to keep my ground.
Still, at times the hurt inside grows stronger.
And there’s nothing I can do but let out...

Just let me cry.
I know it’s hard to see.
But the pain I feel isn’t going away today.
Just let me cry.
Till every tear has fallen.
Don’t ask when...
and don’t ask why.
Just let me cry.

When I agreed that God could put this heart inside me.
I understood that there would be a chance that it would break.
But I know He knows exactly how I’m feeling...
And I know in time He’ll take the pain away.
But for now...

Just let me cry.
I know it’s hard to see.
But the pain I feel isn’t going away today.
Just let me cry.
Till every tear has fallen.
Don’t ask when...
and don’t ask why.
Just let me cry.

I have felt joy,
the kind that makes my heart want to sing.
And so my tears are not a surrender,
I’ll feel that way again.
But for now...
For this moment...

Just let me cry.
I know it’s hard to see.
But the pain I feel.
Isn’t going away today.
Just let me cry.
Till every tear has fallen.
Don’t ask when...
and don’t ask why.
Just let me cry.

I believe that everything happens for a reason.

I love you Nat!

Boys

A couple of weeks ago Colsten was in his room and fell. His mouth was bleeding a little and I noticed his top, front, left tooth was loose. We figured it wasn't too bad and decided to wait to take him to the dentist. Tally went out of town on TDY (a business trip) last week. While he was gone Colsten hit is mouth on the couch while he was playing. He didn't cry, he just laughed a little. I noticed his mouth was bleeding so I called the dentist and they got us in for an appointment the next day. I took him in and the dentist said he would put a bar in his mouth to support the tooth so it could get strong again. He did tell me that if they got in there though and there was any damage to the tooth they would pull it and put a fake one in. I started crying. (I know lame. But I am pregnant and my mom's daughter so the tears come at any given time.) We set up an appointment for Thursday (I was grateful for that because Tally would be home then and he could take him.) Thursday came and they put him out. They did x-rays and saw that the nerve was damaged and that the tooth was broke inside. So they pulled the tooth. He has to go back in this week to get his fake one in.
When he turned a year he fell and knocked out his front bottom two teeth. So at the age of 2 he is already missing 3 teeth. I guess this is the joys of having a VERY active boy.
Daddy and Colsten sleeping after they pulled his tooth. Colsten was still a little drugged up and out of it.

Finally has a computer again. We were without one for about 2 weeks because of a virus. I was so happy when they called this afternoon and said it was done. Now I just need to get updated on my posts.